I have lived with this on my mind for my lifetime

Spent many years shaky and scared

This memory owned me for many years

Now I own it

In a dark room

With eerie feelings

Two young  girl children peacefully

Sleeping in a small bed

The bedroom door opens

A bald headed man walks in

I looked up to see

In the darkness

He’s holding a Huge Knife

I looked at my sister then looked back at him

Pointing that knife right at me

I feel as though I’m in a nightmare

I feel a desperate need to run

But found He blocked the only exit

I began to scream

A rough hand goes over my mouth

The screaming could not be heard

My sister, terrified, jumped out of the bed

Ran to a darkened corner and curled up in fear

He yelled at her to stay where she was

Or he would come after her

And God knows what he would have done to her

She froze in that corner, didn’t make a sound

Slamming the door he again pointed the knife at me

“I will cut your thumb off if you even make a sound”

So Shut up little girl

Not one more sound came from my mouth

The bald man grabbed me, in a painful yank

He dragged me towards him

Then pulled off the nightgown, my mother had made me

The room got gradually darker

In that little room

My mind ran racing,

What felt like, into the wall

So I could hide from the pain

As he forced me to suck on him

He touched and poked at my private parts

Tears streamed down my face

My sister curled up in the dark corner

Crying as she tried not to watch or make a sound

This bald man was raping me

Then it stopped after what seemed like hours

But my tears did not

He got up and threw my nightgown towards me

And yelled “get dressed”

In a deep, mean, gravelly voice he said

“If you tell anyone this had happened

I will kill your mother”

Terrified I knew he would

I could hear my sister still whimpering

In that dark corner of the room

He left and slammed the door behind him

I ran to my sister and we stayed cuddled in that corner

Till daylight broke

Angel